Realisations and revelations - 11.30 … 2 hours to go! – 19th September 2020

 Realisations and revelations - 11.30 … 2 hours to go! – 19th September 2020

 

Unsought and unbidden it just popped into my head.

11.30 … 2 hours to go!

 

What?

 

I check … 

yes, it is 11.30 am on September 19th …

but … what is this 2 hours about?

11.30 + 2hours … 1.30pm …

                  Another random, unsought thought … September 19th … 2018!

“That is when Ciddy came home from her catch-up with Wendy!”

And additional thoughts gently and singly emerge into consciousness …

                  “Then 2 hours, and another 2 hours, and another 2 hours …” 

What the …???

 

Still no clarity or connectedness, 

still no unveiling of memories and (or) heart triggers.

 

Then, like the layers of an onion, 11.30 + 2 hours = 1.30 + 2 hours = 3.30 …

                  Another random, unbidden thought ….

“That it when we went to the travel agent … Greece here we come!”

 

Hardly settled into dawning awareness …

another layer reveals … 

11.30 + 2 hours = 1.30 + 2 hours = 3.30 + 2hours = 5.30 …

                  “Bookings made, flights and seats chosen, account paid … planning complete!”

 

Standing, mute, at the kitchen bench … 

two whole minutes have passed … 

now another layer revealed …

11.30 + 2 hours = 1.30 + 2 hours = 3.30 + 2 hours = 5.30 + 2 hours = 7.30 …And another memory emerges! 

I labour over an email to grandson James and Kate …  prospective Groom and Bride …

detailing our flight plans and …

our amazing, 

joy filled, 

wonderful, 

fulfilling day!

 

As I wrote, eight meters away … in the ten minutes that follow that ‘2 hours’ …

in the shower … 

Ciddy’s brain bleeds, and …

And … I do not know!

 

And there were some more ‘2 hours’ to go …

                  Sometime after 9.30 … ER doctor: “Mr Floyd, no clear diagnosis, but it is VERY serious.

                  Sometime after 11.30 … ER nurse: “Still doing tests, it will be sometime before she is up in ICU!”

 

Michael stays on watch, we will not leave her alone now … 

dear Hayley, drives me home to bed … 

and, merciful, restful, calming sleep … 

 

Heart and mind keep their own timelines … 

it seems … 

and I find that revelation neither burden nor distressful … but surprisingly comforting … 

and grace-filled …

Another gift … blessings unsought and unbidden … now I hidden.

Thank you, Creator God!

©amf-20200919

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